Yes, I am still running this, but I am finding time so precious, I don’t often have the time to do this.

However, it IS good news.

I am 10lb down now. I am doing well.

I am also back to a size 18 top and down to a 38DD bra; which is good. It’s still nice to have big boobs but I prefer these to the 40F I went up to when pregnant. (I don’t know how bra sizes work in the US but it means I am down 2 inches from bust and 2 cup sizes.)

The fabulous hubby to be even commented yesterday that my bum is getting smaller. This is reason enough in itself for me to marry this man!!!

I have been every mans nightmare this week. The Woman In The Clothes Shop should be made into a horror movie.

Plot would be this:

Woman takes his money, spends ages deciding. Buys things. Doesn’t like them. Wants to take it back. Woman needs to do more shopping. Doesn’t like second item, but likes a cardigan instead. Returns second item, keeps cardigan!  Woman goes shopping for a THIRD time, finally tries it on in a shop. It fits. Pays for it with returns money, and then buys jewellery with leftover cash. The end. Man lives til next shopping trip, to be called The Woman In The Clothes Shop 2 – The Return To Shoppng Hell.

The first top, was the size I used to be. But it clung in the wrong places and fell off my shoulders, was baggy around the chest and was incredibly unflattering.

Top 2, the size I thought I was, was far too big around top. Sagged around chest and didn’t even fit into my armpit area and this was a halterneck so it needed to be close.

Top 3, perfect. Not a style I’d normally choose but it looked great on me. It fit at the top and the middle. It was really good feeling that something DOES actually fit me! Best of all, it’s a size 18! I thought I was more a 22. The halterneck was a 22 and looked like a frigging tent. I’m the first to admit I’m bigger round the bottom and thighs than anywhere else so it can be a nightmare finding something that fits in the right places.

I’m beginning to realise that I am not as big as I think I am.

I have a long way to go with body confidence and getting to where I want to be but I am getting somewhere and feeling very very positive about it.

It’ s been a week since I started my diet. It runs Monday to Sunday and my weigh in time is Monday morning.

Today is the first time I can report a loss and Iam very pleased to  reveal that I have lost SIX pounds!!!

In terms for me to “see” 6lbs, it’s HALF of my youngest son. He was also weighed this morning and is 11lb 14oz.

I  am feeling super confident and the fact I know I am working hard and getting the right results spurs me on further.

Let’s see if I can do 3lbs or more this week! That’s my little goal for the next 7 days.

Thank you ladies, I knew I would get some support from you. I am sharing this blog because weight loss is a challenge to anyone whatever their purpose and goal at the end! I want to share tips and support others as well as look for blogs to assist me. A support network and people behind me are such a help no matter how big or small.

I prefer my network online. Other than the future husband, no-one in my family knows I am doing this, I wonder how well I can do before there is a noticable difference for someone to say something.

It’s now Saturday, I started this “self diet” on Monday and so far no major slip ups.

I am breaking the golden rule of dieting though and weighing myself every day at the moment. I know I shouldn’t and it’s really not good but I am losing and it’s encouraging me. All being well, I could be on par to have lost a very satisfying few lbs in my first week by the time I get to my official weigh day on Monday. I won’t say until it’s official but I am looking at a good start, that’s all I’m going to say on that.

What is a little worrying is the satisfaction I get when seeing the dial on the scale get further back. I’m starting to understand what can start eating disorders. Still, I like to think I am a balanced person with alot on these days so I can do well with just the assistance of healthier eating, portion control and a little exercise each day.

I am also getting into good habits. Firstly, breakfast! I make time to eat with James these days. We do the school run then I have a slice of toast or this weeks favourite, a bowl of porridge. I buy the portioned boxes so I am not tempted to over eat and it has surprised me how a small packet can leave me quite satisfied for sometime after. Before I would have easily eaten 3 times the amount then wondered why I wasn’t losing weight and feeling bloated all the time and gone back to skipping breakfast altogether. We also lunch together too when before I would feed him much better than I fed myself.

I try to get in an hours walk each day with the boys and what with all the running around I do after 3 little boys, I already feel far more active than I was before I had my youngest son.

Tonight will be a night of dancing. It’s a friends hen party so there will be a night of alcohol, but I’ve taken that into account with my daily “allowances” so it won’t be a problem. Not that my body is equipped for too much alcohol these days.

I am a little annoyed this morning that a rowing machine I had been watching on ebay went for £10. It ended at 7.30am this morning so the man who wouldn’t accept my £20 buy it now offer 2 days ago lost out. Serves him right for a) not letting me have it at my price, b) being greedy and c)  having something end early Saturday morning. That just seems the most ridiculous time to end bidding.  I still have 2 exercise bikes in my sights as yet.

I best be off but thanks again for bearing with me.

It’s been a month since my third son arrived and I am completely ready to get on the case and get myself in better shape. My self esteem has been a little low recently so I want to get a move on with this and will give it my best shot.

My Target?

50lbs or so by August 18th 2010. That’s my realistic goal. My actual perfect target would be more like 70lbs but I  am being cautious as to not feel too disappointed in myself should I not make it.

50lbs = 1.25lbs per week loss roughly. It is doable if I really knuckledown to it. For the 70lbs? That is 1.6lbs per week. I’d love to consistantly lose 2lb per week every week and trust me I will try!!!

The Aim?

It’s very rare it is said, but alot to lose is certainly more to gain for a girl like me.

Wish me luck!!!